I Struggled To Be Still And That’s Okay

Taking care of your mental health involves failing to do so too

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Why do I need to do something to feel enough? Why isn’t not doing something good enough?

Because we are always doing something, becoming someone, going somewhere: the very essence of who we are has become a verb.

From time management to client management, our current professional structure negates stillness. It has forfeited the need for calm and replaced it with boredom.

So as the final day of my leave draws to a close, I look back at this time, as a practice session. A practice which involved a struggle to be still. A struggle to accept myself without labels. A struggle to forgive myself. A struggle to be in the present.

Reading. Writing. And then, reading some more. Selected works: https://muckrack.com/mariyam-haider

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